As I typed the title to this post I still think it is crazy. How can I have a fear of success? Shouldn’t I be asking about a fear of failure? I’m a natural entrepreneur, I’m confident in my faith, I’m confident in who God wants me to be and do, I’m adventurous, I’m outgoing, and I’ve spent endless hours creating a business that I love…how can I have a fear of success?
The craziest thing happened last week. I felt the fear of success creeping up on me. Emails were pouring in, new clients contacting me, products being finished, offers being made, and I felt anxious. Oh it was a horrible feeling. I asked several of you to pray and I even took the little ones to Grandma and Grandpas this weekend so that I could recover from this nightmare. There were times throughout the week when I would think “I can either go for it or sit back and ignore it” so “Succeed or Fail”. I wanted so bad to take the back seat, but God said “You have worked for 2 long years, 728 days, building this business and you have asked me to take over, now enjoy my blessings.”
Let me tell you friends, I never thought in my right mind that I would have a problem with God’s blessings, but I’ve experienced it first hand last week. This morning it made me wonder what blessings God has in store for all of you, but you hold back, say no to what He wants you to do, get too busy to even see the blessings of success in your business.
I went to my friend and coach, Sandi Krakowski, last week and asked her “Have you ever had the fear of success?” Now, Sandi is a very, VERY, successful entrepreneur so, I never expected a response, but prayed that she would see it sometime throughout her day. God is good and faithful and Sandi is obedient to Him so with those two combined, I believe He led her to read it and respond. I just needed to know from someone who has started their own business if they had a fear of success. I hear all the time that people are afraid to fail, but what about success.
Anyway, not only did Sandi respond to me, but she took time to write a whole post about it in her newsletter. You can find it here on her Blog.
So an update for today. I’m feeling successful(not prideful), accepting God’s blessings, and staying true to who He has made me to be. I have no idea what God has in store for me, but I’ve decided to take it day by day and hold on for the ride. For you, I pray that you will allow God to shower you with blessings, accept them, and keep moving.